I used to think that abandoned blogs were downright eerie. Like where’s the rest of the story? How does it end? Where did this person go?
It’s so bizarre because I actually still get PR pitches EVERY SINGLE DAY from people telling me how much they LOVE my FRESH content and would I be willing to share the word about their client on my site, because it’s SO relevant to my audience?
Most PR companies that used to pitch me have stopped. Those that are aware of the people they are pitching to have come to the realization that I am working in the same space as them now with a company of my own, and for me to talk about their clients’ products is a massive conflict of interest, both for myself and my clients. But I digress.
That brings me to the topic of why is this blog still online? I started this blog five years ago or so, when I still didn’t know what I wanted to be when I grew up. I was immature. I was licking my wounds from a wickedly painful heartbreak inflicted upon me by what I knew was the love of my life (turns out I was right about that. We just got married). I was wildly insecure and I cared ALOT about what people thought about me. And not like my close friends and family. People who I would see at events and ran blogs. People who unfollowed me on Twitter. Seriously.
I was emotional and irrational. I acted in ways I can’t even wrap my head around now. I literally let my head go for a while and documented it all online.
The person I have projected myself to be over the past few years on this blog is not the person I am now. Not at all. I can honestly say I have never been happier in my life than I am at this particular moment in time. I literally have everything that someone who hasn’t been born into a life of wealth and fame could ask for. I’m a normal person and can honestly say, I have it all.
I have just married said love of my life in a gorgeous wedding in Mexico that just thinking about, brings tears to my eyes. To have all of our closest friends and families there on a beach with us to celebrate that most perfect moment in time was so special to me. I found since we’ve become husband and wife, I love him even more. I want to be an even better person for him and be the best wife he could ever ask for.
In October we bought and moved into our first home together. It’s not a massive space but as far as Toronto goes, we consider ourselves lucky. We’re right on the water, which makes us feel disconnected enough from the big city, but the Queen Street car is right outside our front door to bring us in when we need. It needs a little work, but its ours. It has a view of the city that can’t be beat and we feel like grown ups there.
In January, Charming Media moved into its very own office space and its the perfect second home. The company turns three in May and I feel like we are on the right track. I love coming to this office every day and I love the people who I’ve brought into the team. I learn something new everyday when it comes to my work, how to be a good boss, how to manage accounts, how to manage the books of a company, how to grow my business and so much more. It’s crazy busy and crazy stressful and also wildly fulfilling. I always knew I wouldn’t be satisfied working for someone else.
So you can see, I’m not the same person I was when this blog started. Not even close. Can you honestly say you are the same person you were five years ago? I sometimes feel as though people who knew me then can’t take this new person seriously due to the way I portrayed my life and myself online years ago. And that’s ok. I’ve grown in so many ways and will continue to do so.
And maybe I will continue to use this blog to talk about things that I am really excited about right now in my life and my work. My work continues to change and evolve and grow and excite me so that would probably be appropriate.
Anyways, just wanted to touch base in case anyone was still coming back here after 5 months of dead silence. Maybe this post will open the floodgates with more to come. I hope so