I had a bad week. I was overworked, and slept very little. When I don’t sleep, I tend to feel fragile and over-emotional. I had a lot of pertinent work deadlines this week and have put a lot on my plate. Don’t get me wrong. I am so thankful to be so busy with work, I am truly blessed. But I am also truly stressed.
The business I’m in requires that I work with a lot of people who are in the same business as me. Everyone wants the same thing; to do the best by their client/employer so you look like a star. Sometimes that means working together. Sometimes that means working against each other. It is a strange pulley system that can exhaust you from the inside out.
After a week of ying-yanging sugary sweet professional emails and taking the sting of ones written with undertones of bitchiness that leave you feeling like you’ve been slapped in the face, I felt pretty sick of it all. I wanted the one thing that comforted me when things got too much, which was sleep and sleep was no where to be found.
And I missed Brody. As much as getting engaged has calmed me down, assuring me that he will return, it is always hard to be without him. He’s my rock, especially in times when work gets too much. And an engagement ring can’t keep you company on Valentine’s Day. Well it can, but it’s not the same.
I joined the board of directors of the Down Syndrome Association of Toronto in October. My grandmother babysat kids with special needs when I was younger and she babysat me and my sister in the summers, so I grew up around these types of kids. I treated them like any other kid. I fought with them and played with them and got jealous when I didn’t get the same amount of attention as them. I was a kid. I didn’t know.
Ever since I joined, I’ve felt more balanced and more at ease. It is an opportunity to get out of my own head for a change, get my head out of my own ass. Put things in perspective and enjoy the simple things, like laughing, playing and having fun.
Last night I hosted the DSAT Culinary Class and it was the most peaceful and enjoyable 2.5 hours of this entire week.
Thomas is a flirt and no one has made me smile so hard in a long time.
The way I feel after I volunteer makes me feel like I should be thanking DSAT for the opportunity rather than the other way around. And I do. Volunteering and joining the DSAT board has truly been one of the highlights of my life during my time in Toronto and I am truly blessed for the opportunity.
Have a wonderful weekend everyone xoxoxoxo
