Wow, this is the longest I have gone without updating my blog since I have had a blog. It feels strange to even be sitting at my computer typing in the first person.
So what’s been going on? Well, I’m busy. More than busy. While everything is going great on the career-front, I am having trouble maintaining balance and making sure I’m healthy, my house is tidy, my dog is walked and that I see my friends. I’ve gained weight b/c I’ve been working 12-13 hour days and rarely have time to exercise and follow a balanced diet. And ya, there can be people out there who are saying I’m making excuses, but they can eat my dust because I want to go further in life than where a treadmill will take me. That said, it is important to make the time for it, but in the past month, there HAS BEEN NO TIME! I’d rather be sitting on the couch right now with my fiance but instead I am updating my neglected blog on a Sunday night because this has been the only time I have been able to find.
There has to be a better way, no?
It’s funny. I’ve been receiving really kind words from some of my peers congratulating on the progress Charming Media has made. But I feel less “with it” than ever. Half the time I feel like I look like I’ve crawled out of a drain, with my unwashed hair pulled into a messy bun, sitting in a pajama top and sexy pants and heels b/c I only managed to get half undressed and ready for bed before work beckoned me back to my computer because at least twice a week, I feel like I come across something SO impossible to overcome in my career that I feel I may as well throw in the towel until the situation turns on a dime and suddenly I’m SOOOOO happy.
I had a surreal experience the other day, while I enjoyed an intimate dinner with Jeanne Beker, the director of Turkish Airlines and the head of Ryerson Fashion. I was just like, this is insane. How did this HAPPEN? And I told Jeanne about a time when I went to go watch her interview Kelly Cutrone and she said that girls these days need to get out and make their own dream jobs happen and that’s what helped to inspire me.
However, juxtaposition one glamourous evening with another in which I tried to have a friendly, Saturday night dinner party at one of Brody’s friend’s houses. 3 couples enjoying a relaxing evening, one I SHOULD have been enjoying until all of a sudden my face starts to turn green and I get nauseous and I have to spend the rest of the evening in a bedroom upstairs napping until it is time to go home. Brody is so sweet, telling our hosts “She’s been working really hard”. But no excuse. The human body should not react that way.
And I feel bad too for other things. I’ve been trying to transition myself from being known as a blogger to the head of Charming Media. In which case, it wouldn’t matter if this site doesn’t get updated as much, right? But people and brands keep throwing these opportunities at me and I feel like some of them aren’t doing their research. If they even had one idea of me, they’d know I don’t sit at home all day and blog about shampoo and lipstick. Not that there is a problem with people who do do that. It’s just not what I do. So I want to work with brands, but my job comes first so eventually there will be a time when I will just have to be fair to them and myself and say no thank you. Because when they do send you that lipstick, they sometimes want your soul with it.
One brand asked if they could send me a bottle of shampoo and conditioner and so I could tweet about it on my wedding day. Are you f%^king kidding me? For a $7 bottle of shampoo and conditioner, you want to BUY the most important day of my life? It’s not for sale so back off.
I also had to turn down an opportunity with a major fashion magazine to be apart of their blogging network. There was just SO many papers to sign and emails and scanning and consents and info to be given and I’m sorry, I just don’t have the time. Sure it would have helped to drive more traffic to the blog, but look at this blog right now. Much like the dishes in my sink, it’s an unattended to mess. Do I really need more people to see my messy room?
Anyways, I vent. I’m tired and have alot more to do. CM is hosting two big events this week and is a sponsor in Spark Sessions, Canada’s first ever beauty/fashion blogger conference and I will speaking there as well.
And I’m really excited about our events! We are hosting a fun #HolidayCharm media lounge to showcase all of our awesome clients and their holiday product at Hotel Le Germain Maple Leaf Square on Tuesday.
Wow, this IS therapeutic. Even this small time out I’ve taken to write and vent has made me feel kinda better.
Anyways, I have A LOT to catch up on with the blog. Stay tuned for my write up on Touro Churrascara, my favourite Winter things, recaps from some of these fab events, and hopefully more frequent posts. I swear after the 20th I will be SO tuned in.